Gd Day??

isit a gd day?? tt the newsletter is out?? i hope so.. got to sit down and hv a AAR.. but ya.. i noe those mistakes cant be put on any one in particular but they can be corrected.. but to do so i'll need everyone's truthfully and helpful comments.. got to handle it professionally..

wad else happened?? trying to remember which shoe to buy.. and.. somehow things seem to be at a standstill.. i duno wad to do.. do i want to ORD?? weird as it may be.. but i'm uncertain abt my future.. maybe tt is y i dun wan to ORD so fast.. am i enjoying myself.. i duno the ans.. its true i got alot of freedom.. but.. at wad expense?? my life?? frenz??

do i look cheerful and hapi?? if i do.. then gd job jay.. keep up te good work.. bcoz.. i dun feel sad or disappointed or hurt?? i dun feel anything.. tt's not gd rite.. how can a human not feel anything?? or has my heart turn cold?? i hope not.. really..

lookin all ard.. pple everywhere.. children hving fun.. while i am super free.. maybe.. i'm scared and worried abt the future.. where am i heading to.. wad shall i become.. i noe the answers will come sooner rather than ltr.. i juz need courage to face it.. think i look back into history too much tt i dont look 4ward?? do i?? but which way is 4ward?? i'm abit lost at the moment..

anyway i'm going out-field for 3 days 2 nitez.. so tt means alot of time to ponder abt things.. till i come back.. take care guyz and gerz..

Wad happened???

wad happened sia?? to the newsletter?? trying my best to do this prfessionally.. yet.. got pple write abt things can write until so -ve.. then can print out without askin.. wads a hp for?? can call me in the morning at 9am.. then cant call IN THE LATE MORNING?? like 11am?? where's the responsibility?? trying to act responsible?? no wonder so many pple dont like the church.. no wonder its not growing.. but ya.. its true.. face it.. try as it maybe.. juz look at the history.. where is the chain of command?? responsibility??

so wad now?? juz bcoz its done means it cant be undone?? No!! it will be undone.. or not done at all.. i let it be delayed for a week for pple.. and yet i get this?? not saying i dont thank those who put in REAL effort.. but at the last min u can do this?? either reprint or no newsletter.. simple as tt..

now i feel this statement is true - "support success and not failure".. feel like i'm wasting time and effort here now.. all efforts r unfruitful.. really got to move on.. juz pissed off.. is wad shuh koon said is true?? tt it is a waste of time for this newsletter?? i hope not..

haiz.. unprofessional.. or u can say noob.. sad to see so many pple blinded by the facade.. all the hypocrisy.. wake up guys.. its not as gd as it looks.. i noe some pple can see it and share the same view as me.. but i dun wan to quit.. din not since sec sch.. if not i would hv left long ago.. i'll not let them win even thou they r stubborn.. and maybe ungodly?? all those bloody politics.. its a place of worship.. and ya i like to say "if it's not for God.. it wont stand".. true enuf..

thot tt this week would end on a high note.. as usual.. no.. i noe i sound like i'm complaining.. but ya.. juz wan everyone to noe wad is going on in case u r slpin.. and y i'm like so -ve towards this.. against myself being +ve and not being assetive..

wad else to say?? disappointed..