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been workin for near 6 mths.. got the letter to be confirmed.. so now can comfortably say i'm workin at Deloitte.. but somehow.. as God-given as it seems.. i dun feel like my future..

i'm still thinkin of being a teacher.. a lecturer.. something tt would give me time to concentrate on God family and frenz.. life now does not seem so great.. so many things nt done..

am i lucky or is God lettin me taste success?? do u noe how many accountancy students wan to get into a big 4?? how many of them actually get in?? as interns or as employees.. i din get into any of the auditing firms as a student.. no recommendations.. no experience.. no nth.. so it has to be God's doing.. i hear so many pple toking abt how hard it is to get into the big 4.. and here i am wonderin how all this happened..

the confusing part is.. does God wan me to listen to wad i believe is his callin or do i stay wif wad he has given me.. i do nt noe.. and bcoz of this.. i drag myself to work everyday.. something's nt rite..

i envy those who r able to go overseas for mission trips.. i cant experience such things at the moment.. may God always refresh and continue to enrich these pple..

somehow i envy those who serve Him wif all their lives.. but i dun evny those wif everything in life.. hmmm..