Getting old??

Hmmm Today Suddenly wanted find a job.. To earn $$$.. Wondering if I can find a job after I ORD provided I fail in getting into SMU.. Desperate sia.. Was feeling a bit of a heartache.. Got CRUSH on a ger.. Heard she got bf.. But since it’s a crush, y got heartache?? No pt askin me who it is as I wont tell u.. Crush only wad.. Juz got to noe some gd news.. To me lah.. Get the feelin she likes me too.. Shhh…^~^.. But.. Nvm..

Blogs r places for pple to write all the sorrows, dairies.. Wad at the fun times?? Like the 1st time this ger smiled at me etc.. Wow.. Juz read something.. And its from someone gentle loh.. Duno if she wrote tt or copied it from somewhere.. Can tell whoever wrote those things has hatred sia.. A lot of it.. Hope its not the writer..

20 plus.. Feels old loh.. Do I miss my teenage days?? Think so.. Isit those carefree days in life where only studies bother u?? And the occasional bgr probs.. Starting to think abt the future le.. Xin shi ah..

So wad is ur dream date.. For me would be dinner at some nice restaurant beside a river or the sea.. Toking and enjoying the the beautiful sunset, cool nite breeze.. Those r times u wish would nvr end ya?? After dinner can take a walk by the beach.. Look at the stars and telling how her eyes look like them.. Sitting down on the beach and toking some more.. Then again.. y need to tok?? Being in one’s presence is often more than enuf.. True?? Hopefully she leans on me thru out the nite.. Not a word said yet a million things were told.. Taking a sniff at her hair.. She thinks she smells but to u she is the most wonderful smelling thing.. Ever had tt feelin?? Wad abt a gentle kiss on her cheeks?? Seeing her smile after u did tt.. Juz makes u wan to hug her even more ya?? Hugging her the entire nite to keep her warm even though there might be no wind?? Feelin for heart beat.. Waitin for the endless nite to turn into day.. A day u wished would nvr come.. Fantasies will be fantasies.. Wonder would this ever come true.. Can say I’m a hopeless romantic guy.. I don’t disagree.. But I would like to enjoy sports wif her.. Like say cycling before dinner.. Wad abt a little suntan.. Get to see her in tt bikini she thinks she looks fat in where in reality u hv more spare tire.. I got fats okie.. Dreamz.. Hope they can come true..

Believe tt I nvr did love anyone b4?? Like – of course lah.. I like all my frenz.. Despite going thru a few failed relationships.. I nvr did feel heartache for myself.. Juz felt tt I hurt tt ger.. Made her go thru something tt wont materialize.. So.. Wad isit to really love?? Nvr did noe tt feelin.. And even if I did experience it.. How do I noe?? I duno the answer.. Nvr did and duno when I will.. Hopeless romantic bugger here.. So y do pple think I am ‘gd’ wif gers or noe many gers?? Someone tell me.. I don’t.. Haiz..

I also need a betta memory.. Keep 4gettin wad I wan to write.. I miss my crush.. Lolx.. Till the next time.. May God bless those wif exams.. And those in camps..