Pondering..

long time din blog le.. dont feel like typing anything.. i feel handicapped without my trusty cam.. which i will need soon.. tmr the last day of my off.. or rather today.. lolx..

oya.. gd jb with the teaching on sunday dave.. at least now u noe how a lecturer feels.. lolx.. also thinking abt the X'mas skit.. how am i helping YS?? things r abit slow at the moment.. hv to say welcome to Clara and Chloe for those drinks.. As well as Bear and Candice.. Chloe has tt " i'm lost look" esp when trying to tell her how to play the guitar.. let me think awhile how to teach u.. and rj ah.. muz test u le.. if not u wont improve.. look at XW.. learning quite fast..

a few thots going thru my head now.. like y do i go esplanade without the ger i like?? then again.. where is she?? glad 4 dave tt he has some1 to care for him.. matt as well.. now left me and ilango.. think he'll get 1 b4 me.. wad isit with my life?? too high standards?? or do i give the i'm not interested attitude?? fel intro me to her fren when i went her church.. but both her fren and her said i like not interested.. really?? even thou i smiled but din tok?? i am the dao bugger?? haiz.. i'm starting to realise the qualities i hv.. isit gd 4 me to noe?? wad if i start to 'abuse it'?? no gd no gd.. life's abit weird for me now.. need help b4 i start to drown again.. i walk as if i'm dragging myself.. lookin down and thinkin.. wad am i doing?? y i dont turn to JC?? how will my life change?? hard isn't it?? at least till i ORD which is like less than 9 mths.. y isit i 'complain' here?? is there no other place 4 me to confide in?? i'm sure i'll get comments on this.. need a goal in life now.. if not i'll be wasting a life God created..

concerned abt my future as well.. praying tt i make it into SMU.. so i need the SAT.. i think i can handle it but i haven find out where and when to take.. similiar for basic theory.. when will i go 4 it?? then more importantly.. to take or not to take up ACCA?? these r my major concerns.. may God lead me.. sign off for now..